ZetaLightning94

They can go fast, but hows their accuracy? Faster you go, the harder it is to control and the less likely you will make your mark

Trump got a shiny new toy...

Always love yourself first, then love someone else. Its easy to settle, but its tough to find the right person, but they do exist

Sounds like your lack of an emotional connection is being funneled through physical attention. You might be attacking the wrong feeling. I would still recommend a therapist not just a random guy on lemmy. I'm positive you can find a solution, I will always reccomend that you know yourself before you go into a relationship because we all tend to lose ourselves.

But in maintaining the need for physical touch you are likely making your need worse. Therapy is never a bad option and in all reality, the need of physical touch may also be a point of contention and arguments in any future relationship. Guys suck at it, especially ones with trauma, so you need to learn to be self sufficient.

It sounds like you dont know who you are. Take a minute alone and learn how to be independent and love the things you love, then stroll into your next relationship more confident and mature. You are desperately jumping into relationships to fill a void instead of being interested in the person you are dating.

You lost me at a shit load of traffic. Its a pretty place, but I like grass and no brake lights.

You dont need to be. Sit in a field and dont talk to anyone and you can still be the only one out in the rain.

Its actually worse in the cities. Homeless are drugged out in clumps across the sidewalk. Agriculture side its usually beautiful landscapes with the occasional drug dens out of sight.

Which I dont understand why anyone would want to spend that kind of money to live in a shit hole... why would someone want to pay to be that close to other people and live in disgusting conditions. I have been to way too many american cities and they are always horrible. Parts of peoples commutes is to step over the homeless who are usually drugged out of their minds. This isnt a "he has issues" its more of a "he doesnt understand the rational"

The beatings will stop when morale improves?

I still feel like that is better then being just a number in a city. Real relationships with hopefully good people