RBWells

Never. Once I realize I am dreaming, I can act on my own. I try not to disturb or actively control the dream world though, always want to explore it.

Yeah that's where I am, and with some exceptions (there has been a one-bus route to the university at all my residences, like walk a few blocks, get on a bus, relax, end of the line is the school) it's so difficult to use the bus system, one transfer and you are hosed. If I had a magic wand, I'd reinstate the trolley lines to their original farthest reach plus stadium and business districts, make all buses run every 15 minutes (the routes are reasonable) and make it all fare free, or an easy and cheap subscription, wave phone or ticket.

Ah. For me the most direct possible route has car road, buses (yes three of them, and oddly, this only happens in a couple of places and home to work is one of them) and sidewalks, and the roads are 35mph ones so if pedestrians are on the sidewalk I take the bike in the road, if it's clear I take the sidewalk.

Our old location, it was different - there was a way to walk between my kids school and the office, but no safe bike route and car had to go on the highway and loop around, the road didn't exist, and house to work no way but car, it had a bus stop but only the bus to the next city passed it, and that one you have to board in downtown so I know what you are talking about. Even with the express bus between downtown and work it would have taken a couple of hours. And driving took between 10 minutes and 50 minutes depending on traffic (bus subject to same traffic) So glad they moved into the city.

Huh. My office is about 30 minutes walking too, but 5 minutes drive and about 15 by bus (only because there are literally 3 different routes that happen to run between a couple blocks from my house to a block from my work, so the fucking half hour frequency doesn't apply - I specifically live near bus lines always but they slashed the frequency) . I actually bike in every day unless it's raining.

Everyone left in my department is amazing actually, so we go to each other because we all think differently, and yes sometimes my do everything different ways all the time approach really pays off. Work seems to think I do a good job but to me it feels more like occasional flashes of brilliance and longer stretches of slower work because I can't do anything I don't understand, have to see the whole picture first.

I am worried about OP, he put another post up about is it normal to care only about your romantic partner and no interest at all in anyone else.

Oh my gosh when I was younger I absolutely loved to sleep on speed, it felt so good. Caffeine would leave me wired but amphetamine - it's not that it made me sleepy exactly, but the sleep on speed was so delightful.

And yeah I gained 20 lb when I went to school in England and was fed 3 times a day, I had never eaten like that before. Just when I got hungry and remembered, lol.

Now I mostly just make sure to exercise - I was very active as a teen too but now it really works, if I exhaust my body my mind does settle.

Yeah my kids tell me I have ADHD, and by the current understanding of it I would agree (when I was growing up it only applied to literally hyperactive kids, I have seen some and it was extreme and disabling, they were wild and screaming, couldn't stop moving or learn.) and certainly have not a good understanding of time at all. And it's like I know they are ok, and that is satisfactory, I am happy if they are happy.

I cannot imagine asking a guy his size. That is rude as heck.

If you have to answer "big enough" or "haven't had any complaints" seems reasonable though honestly I'm having trouble putting myself into the mindset of someone who would inquire.

One of my coworkers says she has no fucks left when she feels like that. "Sorry, all my fucks have already been given."

No. I don't miss people while they are alive - I don't need to talk to them or see them, I know they are alive, and don't miss them somehow, yes friends, yes even my parents and siblings and grown kids, I love them but if I know they are ok that seems to be enough.

But when they are sick or hurting I care. I want them happy and healthy and if I can help I want to.

And when they die I miss them, so much.

Not sure what normal is, but no that doesn't sound normal. How do you feel about your own self? Do you care for your own body and mind?

Why is she always standing in front of a fan? Does she carry around a wee box fan to blow back her hair?

Really? Keep it so quiet.

Would do the things to the house that we say we'd do if we had all the money. But not more. Get the car my husband wants, but with a loan so it's not so obvious. I don't need one. Start putting the max into the retirement accounts and pull an extra couple thousand to pay for stuff each month.

I feel like this would basically need to be laundered like crime money, if we wanted to do more with it, even good things. Would think on it, but without a way to do that I would just use it.