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[–] utg@mander.xyz 1 points 1 year ago (1 children)

I've noticed that the lack of content and poor arrangements is pushing me back to reddit

[–] utg@mander.xyz 9 points 1 year ago (1 children)

My realization came from DDLC. I learned about what other people can feel after you've left

[–] utg@mander.xyz 1 points 1 year ago

Oh yes, definitely.

It wasn't always the case. I started Journaling as a means to recover my mental health. The initial entries were really dark and I don't read them often, perhaps less than once a year.

After I recovered, I started using it as a logbook for my own life. Initially I only just wrote events happening around me, or interesting world events, but soon I was writing my own desires to improve myself.

That's when it really kicked off for me. Till now about 2 years had passed since I started Journaling. I would write about something I wished to change about myself, like reducing soft drink consumption, quitting cigarettes, or just changing my behavior a certain way. Gradually I would write about how I could go about realizing it, eventually I would do it.

Reading back I can see that today I am totally different from me a year ago. It's really fascinating to me and it has helped me to stay way ahead of my mental health. I was able to recognize a relapse in my depression and address it accordingly.

[–] utg@mander.xyz 3 points 1 year ago

Smoked for 8 years, a pack a day, sometimes more.

One day I was suffering really bad from depression, that's when I suddenly decided that I've stopped smoking. The cravings were rough, but I powered through. A year and half later my life got much better, unfortunately at that time I picked it up again, for another year.

I knew I shouldn't continue this habit, I actually hated it, but I became it's slave once more, a pack a day again. This time however, I had an aim of improving my physical and mental health. I joined a gym and went for daily runs. I noticed that after a run I wouldn't crave a cigarret for hours. After months of training, I increased my gym/running activity to 2 hrs and quit smoking at the same time. It was easier than before.

Unfortunately again, I started using nicotine pouches thinking I wouldn't get addicted to it. For half a year I used it, before again starting gym and running and then quit nicotine altogether. Initially it was a bit rough as my mental health wasn't too good at that time, but now after a month, I don't even get the cravings either. Hopefully I won't Crack this time

[–] utg@mander.xyz 1 points 1 year ago

Unfortunately, yes. I was lucky enough to get a not so insignificant space in onedrive. It has helped me out more times than I can count. I clearly understand why this feature is included, and no it's not so that boomers don't lose it out. It is pure marketing.

If it was a genuine effort to help out people, it wouldn't be so in your face. They'd realize that if someone's disabling it through registery then they probably don't use onedrive or that they absolutely do not need it,

[–] utg@mander.xyz 1 points 1 year ago (2 children)

I use winaero to customize this pc folder and the left navigation pane. Doing this means I have custom items in both of them. But onedrive automatically adds itself to the left pane every time I remove it. Some time ago a used a batch file to automatically write the registery entry to remove it, but microsoft started rewriting the default after a few hours. At that point it was just frustrating so I gave up.

Now every time microsoft asks if I will recommend windows I say its good but since it's forced down my throat, I won't recommend it

[–] utg@mander.xyz 11 points 1 year ago (4 children)

I use edge and onedrive. I like my settings in a particular way. However, microsoft thinks it's okay to change the system settings every few days because in their infinite wisdom I can't use their products enough without them forcing them down my throat every chance they get.

It's gotten to a point where I change the settings via registery key, but after a few hours it reverts back

 

Why YSK?

I had a very close brush with depression few years back. It was journaling habit that saved me. Many times you wish to keep your ideas and your health to yourself (or are simply unable to share) this is where journaling can be extremely powerful tool to help yourself

Often times it was very painful to be wanting to speak to someone who could understand the pain and suffering, yet also knowing that there isn't one. It's not that my friends or my parents would shun me away from speaking out or seeking help, but because my depressed mind always circled back to the point that they cannot understand me.

Journaling allowed me to talk to the person who knew all about me; Myself.

I would write a couple of pages about things bothering me, feelings of powerlessness, and just sharing the general hopelessness. Sometimes I would re-read previous pages and it would become an exercise of trying to solve some of the problems. It was like having two different versions of myself speaking to each other. Sometimes one would speak of an issue, the other would try to find a way out, and vice versa.

Over the course of a few months, it was joined by another instance that would comment on my progress over some ideas that I had been thinking over. So, it became sort of scientific process of observation, hypothesis and experiment. At one time I would explain a problem, some time later I would myself come up with a solution that could help it, and soon I would be talking it over with myself about how good it was and suggesting changes to myself after all that experience.

My initial fight with depression has been over for many years now, but I kept journaling. It helped me lose weight, get into shape, set my own goals and start new hobbies even. One thing I want you to know is that at the current moment, I feel as though my depression is like cigarettes. I quit, but every day I still wish to start again. It means that another stressful time at work or even home has the potential to restart depression in my head, and it very nearly did.

It was journaling that alerted me to my changing mental state, enabled me to come up with a strategy to fight back and take back control of my own life.

Mental health is not like other health issues where people can see the effects on your body, your face. If someone can recognize your depression from your behavior, chances are that you have already suffered too much pain. While there are many places that can provide professional help that you may need, I admit that not everyone is in a position to seek it out - like myself. In that case, I hope that this personal experience can be a little helpful