going to preface this with, don't worry about my immediate health or anything. i am not having a psychotic episode of anything like that, i am 100% sober...and...that's honestly the scariest part for me.
there is a message that finally got through to me, woke me up (wait, motherfucker...is that where "woke" comes from?!?!?), something I'v been aware of for a long time now i think, but it got suppressed down for...10 goddamn years... for whatever reason, until now.
now that I'm aware of it, I see it damn near everywhere, almost every majorly acclaimed movie, song, book, poem, fucking everything...
and it's not like this is some short-term problem either, it's not going away when trump dies, it's not even going away if trump dies and the establishment regains control (i have my doubts they can pull this off).
it's the same goddamn cycle over and over (with slight variations), boom followed by completely deliberate bust, one privacy-overreach followed by another, the same playbook used over and over. and occasionally either end is some random organic act-of-god, which just works to obfuscate the intentional acts.
it's so large and all encompassing you can't even be sure which parts are apart of it and which are just...people still asleep just going about their lives.
and now, because this world seems to be ran by a bunch of fucking psychopaths, I'm even more paranoid sober than when I was having a actual mental breakdown
because how the fuck do I trust anyone now?
how do i seperate those that know from those that don't?
psychopathic assholes from regular assholes?
friend from foe?
hell, how the hell do Ieven confirm that this is real, I know that everyone in my own immediate family is stuck in these little arithmetic bubbles too so i can't bring it up with them, if i tried they would probably be worried I'm going crazy.
and because of past-me's mistakes over the years I have no irl friends whatsoever to talk with either, so i guess all I have left is to send this out onto the internet and hope for the best?
You should take all the things that stress you out that you have no control over, and just toss them out window. You can’t control them, so why worry about them?
There’s plenty of things worthy of your time that you can control. So focus on them.
Yeah, the only reason I'm not a raving psychopath is that I continuously remind myself of the circle of influence.
There's only so much that any of us have the ability to do.
There's only so much that any of us have the ability to influence.
If you stop looking beyond that circle and only focus on the stuff inside the circle, you can have a lot more control over your daily life.
You can do things like block out news companies that only report on things that terrify you. There is other news out there.
The ones that are always telling you the scary things are doing it because they know you will reflexively keep your eyes glued on them and therefore see more ads and make them more money.
It is a fundamental human aspect. It's just like PTSD, when something hurts us, we become more aroused, more aware of its existence, and we pay more attention to things that are like it, our pattern recognition brains kicking in, so that we can protect ourselves from the pain.
Hyper-vigilance towards evil is the default.
But if you remind yourself that there is some evil out there in the world that you can't do a damn thing about, then it's a lot easier to just dismiss it and ignore it.
It doesn't make the evil okay. It's just a reminder that you literally cannot stop murder rapes in Timbuktu if you do not live in Timbuktu and serve as a police officer.
If it's not your responsibility, not your authority, not your ability to stop it, then don't waste your energy on it and instead focus on decreasing the number of murder rapes in your local area by not murder raping people, you know?
And if you see a murder rape happening, attempt to intervene if it is within your capabilities.
This applies to places like Lemmy as well. If seeing all the bad shit on the politics community is triggering, block it!