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why do i have to beg for even an ounce of human interaction, what kind of social ubermensch would i need to be to not be lonely as all hell. i love how the continuing and never-ending housing crisis has made it so that even people who don't actually want to live together with other people need to have roommates, leaving me with fucking assholes who sure can pretend to want to be roommates when they get to know you, but then nonchalantly tell you that the happiest time they've ever spent in the shared apartment that they've lived in for five years were the three months that they lived in it alone. like ok you've got a girlfriend you are at every weekend ok then move in together just get the fuck away and let someone else move in who might feel more like actually living together who doesn't see this giant shared space as anything other than a cheap place to shower and sleep.

and then people tell you to not to care about romantic relationships too much, when its clear those are the only relationships that are ever allowed to last. i dont want to plan my life alone. i do not want to make every decision alone. i do not want all my relationships to be temporary. i do not want to be a single social atom floating around in the emptiness that is "there is no such thing as society" society we live in. i want to go home and find somebody there who cares for me. i want somebody to tell me they want me, i want somebody to tell me they want me.

that is not a weird thing to want. that is not a special thing to want. that is a very normal human thing to want and a very normal thing to be sad about not having.

Man I so hate the fact that I searched for a new place for three years, found one that was cheap and had seemingly chill roommates and now I just feel more sad and lonely than I ever felt at the old shitty place. Like sure the last place was shittier and more expensive and I kinda hated my roommates, but at least there I didn't want to hang out with them and I had a cat to cuddle with. Here is hurts that my roommates seemingly just aren't interested at all in doing stuff and I just feel like a total fucking loser for wanting to do stuff with them but I so don't feel like having to beg to hang out and feeling like everything gets initiated by me.

It's a choice between a rock and a hard place, but I seriously hope there's no one on here who would choose the nostalgia critic

if that game actually was the backpacking postman simulator that people said it was it would be great, but nah i gotta be this pretty hollywood dude saving the world from some stupid supernatural anime bullshit and watch so many stupid ass cutscenes of people just needlessly prancing around the place saying absolutely nothing of importance

There's this fantastic daily display of gobsmacking peace and beauty and every single person on earth can afford to witness it regularly.

Actually they can't. The industrial machine dictates when you wake up and when you go to sleep. People before capitalism actually slept more in the winter and less in the summer, just because their bodies told them to do. People used to be much more in tune with the passing of time and the beauty of the world.

How should I tell the people in my group therapy how shitty everything is and that we are probably living in the end times?

At least the black plague ended and the people dying in it believed they'd go to some other nicer place, another Holocaust is happening right now and colonization and slavery are also happening right now. Nowadays everyone agrees we've only got this one life and one planet and one existence and we still don't manage to care enough about it. The Internet sucks and is bad and I don't want to numb myself to the single existence I know I have.

Life should be free (free as in freedom AND free as in free refill)

Where do I get the energy to change my life. I need to like lose twenty pounds, become more socially active and either finish my useless masters degree and then start some apprenticeship in a job that's not soul crushingly terrible on the face of it or just do that without finishing my masters

There's a few interviews of him as a young guy and he's really kind of a douche

This was supposed to be the year of the doohickeys

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