If it wasn't for my belief in the people I've lost, that they're In a better place, then I would have never have decided to try and better my life. My dogs for example, who passed a few years ago, are why I'm trying to turn my life around. I don't think it NEEDS to be an organized religion, but I ultimately just don't know. I know that my loved ones are somewhere were they are safe, happy, and at peace, and that they're encouraging me not to give up. I was a militant atheist for a long time because... I was angry at the world for feeling like a mistake, like a burden.
I'd like something, that tells me on a spiritual level, that I'm not, and that despite these hardships, I'll be okay. I don't know who to talk to about all this.
Lol I truly don't know why my account appears as a bot account, maybe because I deleted the app then redownloaded it? Idk, but that aside what advice would you give me? I feel like I need this to help give me the strength to get through the hell of life. I feel so broken, so why not try and find something to (at least mostly) help fill the void?