Collapse

How many mg are you on? I know it's really hard, but it's also really possible to go down relatively quickly. If your doctors aren't helpful about it take it into your own hands and start reducing the dose every single week. Use old bottles to split new ones if needed to make the steps smaller. It took years to get started with seriously reducing, but once you do it can go pretty quick. The methadone is only maintaining a steady level in your system due to the way absorption work, so you're already past the hard part (you're not getting high anymore). I would focus on this for now and reduce/stop asap while you still have your access, your best bet is to be free of it if/when that time comes, if it happens too quick you can (and will) find other solutions at that point. Best of luck.

if you have money you can just buy black market methadone or opiates on current dark net . you could plant opium poppies and make laudanum then wean yourself. if it was me i would stockpile and grow the poppies, then be ready to be miserable for a year as you ride the edge of misery until you can quit and renormalize. you can use kratom but its also addictive and no better than just being opiate addict. do all the things, most importantly accelerate your detox as much as you can so you can handle it . save as much of your wafers as you can each dose and use it to taper if they cut you off

I have no advice, just want to say I'm sorry you're working on yourself and then some idiot may make it harder. Stay strong.

I agree with you that you cannot trust the current federal government with not cutting this program. I wouldn’t recommend the following advice because it requires very good opsec, but methadone can be bought on the dark web. Hopefully it doesn’t come to that.

~~Less than helpful advice probably, but the only way to truly be independent it to wean yourself off of the chemical dependency~~

This is an L comment and deserves the downvotes.