Asklemmy

First night i was stunned by the breakup, thought it must be a nightmare or a joke or a prank or something, so i just sit there with my mind blank. Was 30 at that time and she's my first love.

Second day it finally hit me this is real, so i cried the whole day while still need to work, though the work help took my mind off from the shock. Driving back home is the hardest as i will break down crying at any moment given. I'm just a dead man walking around, completely empty from the inside. I cried the whole night.

Thoughout the whole months it basically the same thing repeated every day, i cried more in this few months than i did in my lifetime. The second month me is starting to get better, or so i thought. Occasionally i will break down crying, thinking what i done wrong because there's no closure from her.

The third month experience is basically month two but with less breakdown, but still occasionally thinking what could've gone wrong.

Then throughout the first year, the crying get less and less and i would miss her less and less, but the scar it inflict is just too painful for me to look for another love.

But yes, it's really just time. I tried to rush though it but end up getting worst instead. Having friends and families to reach out to would help a tons.